Virgin count
30.3.09
Well I hate to admit it, but my best friend(ray) really is a bitch. Shes hurting Manny waaay too much, I really wish she would stop. And as much as it will hurt him, I think the only way for her to stop hurting him is to dump Manny. Once and for all. No crushing his very being and then start talking to him as if you never broke up. I mean REALLY! Stop getting back to gether with him and then telling him your thinking about breaking up with him again in the same hour! Can t you see how far this guy has fallen for you?
Peace had sex. She fucken had sex. With her boyfriend of one year. Ray thinks she will get dumped. I mean, her boyfriend is not a virgin (FAAAAAR from it) and she thinks he will break up with Peace after he gets bored with screwing her. Ray never did like Tom (Peace's bf). But she dosnt like mine either, I have no clue why. I think because I was happy with mine even though hers broke up with her...some stupid selfish shit. And even though she HATES my bf, and even though she is an ASS to Manny (my bfs BEST friend) he dosnt hate her. He wants her to stop hurting him, but he still wants to be friends with her.
What I dont get is why Ray cares if my bf is mad at her when she hates him anyway...pssh whatever. (I told you guys how inccensitive and bitchy she was when me and him almost broke up, god she was like happy! and she didnt care about my pain, basically told me so...)
But anyway, now the virgin count is down to 3. Only 3 of us left....Wow...And we NEVER thought Peace would go so soon. I mean shes always said she didnt want to be like her sisters...then she goes and does THIS? lol Shes completely screwed up the order (we sat down once in 6th grade and made the order we all thought we would lose our virginity). I mean, she was last (after me) but she decided to go second? Lol second out of the 5 of us that made and were in the list....but if you count all our other friends....theres only...4 virgins left...out of like....30 or so of us.
Virgin count remainees: Me, Ray, Daisy
Vibes* 16:33
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26.3.09
So I hadnt heard from C since friday, so I decide to text him (on tuesday).
Me: C! whats up?
Him: Not much....whos this?
...OK what the fuck, did he delete me? This can only mean one of two things: One, he hates me and no longer wishes to speak to me. Two, ....Well, I cant think of two....So I guess he jsut hates me.
Anyway after a series of txt messages he tells me he never wants to speak to me again. When I asked him why he says that he knows his feelings for me will never be returned, and if he cant have me then it will probably be easier if he never spoke to me again.
Damn, I dunno about you, but I'd at least like to hang out if I were him...but whatever.
And I love how he uses such low blows. Like wishing all this stuff for me and telling me all this nice stuff right after he says how much Ive hurt him by not returning his feelings....gah, guilt trip. But its not like I can suddenly control my feelings for him.
Urg, and he got back with his gf and broke up with her again.....lol how was I supposed to even think about him that way when he is constantly in and out of a relationship with his psycho ex?
My friend L said "Fuck 'em! He's being an ass anyway. Dont talk to him"
lol, gotta love how the person who was PUSHING me to be with him and rooting for the Kori+C team has completely done a 180....Ah, but thats my L.
Vibes* 14:49
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20.3.09
So I just got back from my friends bakery (she just opened it Monday). Its ADORABLE! Icecream, pies, candy, doughnuts, regular food, and LOTS MORE! So anyone in the northern part of ohio must go! (She'll be getting a website sometime, which of course I'll post)
So anyone an expert on the healing miracles of food? No? -_- of course not. Fine fine, I'll just do research like a good student.
So anyone think its weird that I actually ENCOURAGE all the gay rumors about me? I mean, at first I just did it cause it was funny to scare the homophobes. I still have no idea where people got the idea, but never once have I made an attempt to stop it.I'll tell you one thing, it sure as hell will come in handy when I give Mike a reason for me to not go out with him. Nice guy and all...but talks waaaay to much about his lil "fan club" (lol see Dating tips for boys. Just scroll down, it should still be up) and about what a "rebel" he is and all the trouble he gets into. pssh.But anyway, yeah Im still going to go with the whole "Picky" title instead of "bi". I dont think I can claim a Bi, straight, or gay title until I figure it out.
OH! And remember C? Got back with his psyco stalker (who threatens to kill herself if shes not dating him) girlfriend. But then breaks up with her.....again....how many times is he going to do the break up, get back together, flirt with me, get back with her thing? Seriously, its reeeaaallllly old. He's going into seclusion now. But my bet is that he'll date her again within a week. Im not trying to be mean, he just is the kind of person who NEEDS to be in a relationship.
Vibes* 20:24
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16.3.09
Have you ever done something that made you feel so horrible that the guilt weighs down on you even after you've been told its alright, no big deal, understandable, or whatever they say to make you feel better? One little sentence that slips out in anger, that isnt even that insulting to most. But said by the right person, to the right person....
I just feel like such a bitch.
He claims its no big deal, that he has heard worse...but I didnt mean it. I know he dosnt believe me. Its just something I said out of anger, I think I was trying to hurt him. But as soon as those words left my lips I regreted them. To no avail, I reached out and tried to pull them back. I cant even remeber why I was so angry at him, or what it was we were fighting about.
Im sorry, I really am.
Vibes* 12:43
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Sexting
15.3.09
Is it a moral or legal issue?
I have to write a paper on whether i think it is a legal or moral issue. It seems to only be a legal issue if minors are involved. People dont seem to realize what can happen to them. They can be registered sex offenders, it can stop them from getting the job or into the school that they want. It can even cause suicide. (think about it, a girl sends a nude picture to her boyfriend. they break up, out of spite he posts it on the web sending it to all his friends. They send it to their friends and so on. Now the girl is getting harrassed, teased, called names. No one is being nice to her now, she has a reputation as a whore, and she cant take it anymore. What do you think she will see as a way to escape her depression and the abuse?)
I think its mostly a moral issue (though I am glad that some legal action is taken. Mostly on the people who spread those pictures)...but I'm not exactly sure what to write, or how to say that (it has to be a couple pages). So far I really only have about a paragraph (lol curse my procrastination). So what do you think?
Vibes* 11:07
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12.3.09
I was incredibly sick this week. The achy, barfing kind of sick, it sucked.
But anyway my father and I have started a competition. Which of us can get in the best shape by the time I come to visit this summer.
I've decided to focus on my flexibility. My father is focusing on weight loss. He has all kinds of awesome exercise equipment while I only have a yoga mat and some free weights. I also live 10 minutes from a gym. The only problem is that everyone from my school goes there, and I don't want to embarrass myself.
I also want to re-join the tennis team, so I really have to get in shape again.
Yes, short post, oh well. Later!
Vibes* 15:49
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7.3.09
OK so I go over to my friends house yesterday and as soon as I step through the back gate I hear a battle cry. Next thing I know there is a searing pain in the back of my knee, then my arms, then my head.
I look up and my friend is beating me with his wooden training sword.
"OW! What the HELL are you doing?"
"I thought you couldnt feel pain?" He laughed.
"No, I cant feel when i cut myself (not like a morbid Im depressed way, but the I love to cook and the knives are sharp way)!"
As he is raising the sword above his head I swing my leg around, knocking him over. (of course I grabbed the sword and chased him around with it for a bit)
The backs of my legs are in so much pain today I can barely walk.
On a lighter note I have decided to swear off dating and get rid of my emotions (lol...i wish on that last part). Its too much of a pain and I really dont want to deal with any of it anymore. ^^ So im done. And 100% off the market.
Vibes* 16:54
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Oh Kori, what a mess you have gotten yourself into
4.3.09
Warning: This is a guy problem post. I know not many people like guy problem posts so this warning will now appear before every guy problem based post I post to save you from starting to read something you dont want to.
(Now Im in one of those horrid long distance relationships. NEVER GET INTO ONE OF THOSE)
So my boyfriend and I broke up Sunday night. We had been arguing alot and so (my attempting to prove a point) we ended our arguing with another that had the end result of us dating other people to prove that he didnt really only want me.
Monday: He goes ballistic and snaps at everyone who even dares to look at him. God forbid if you tried to talk to him. (Info courtesy of my friend who goes to the same school as him)
I on the other hand spend the day arguing with myself in my head....Yes, there were some tears.
Tuesday: I go over to, my friend, C's house to try to distract myself. He knows that I just broke up with my bf (Just an FYI: he broke up with his gf a week prior. She is still trying to get back together with him). I'm standing in the kitchen, he comes over and puts his arms around me. He looks at me for a moment and then kisses me. I kiss back.
So later in class it hits me just exactly what happened. So I text my friend L. She, having been rooting for the Kori and C pairing, is ecstatic.
Later he texts me (does anyone CALL anymore??) asking me if I want to go to the movies Saturday. Since I'm supposed to date others during this whole stupid ordeal I agreed.
Today: My ex calls. Ill skip all the crap that happened during the phone call and just get to the end result: we're back together.
Now what am I supposed to do about C? He seems so happy about me and him...I really dont want to hurt him. But I cant date TWO guys...grah. Fucking soap operas.....This isnt fun....who actually LIKES this kind of crap?
I think I liked it better when I was invisible to guys.
Vibes* 13:24
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Spread the skull!
