20.5.09
Two stories to tell
Yesterday:
I went grociery shopping with mom for the first time in months. Im bending down to get something from the bottum freezer and (without my knowing) three guys gathered around to check me out. Whislt digging through the freezer i find my favorite food (which can usually only be found in the southern part of the country, not the northern part where i live). So with a childish squeak I jump up and scream/squeak "MAMA (yes ma ma)! COME HERE!" and i waved her over. I THEN see the three guys, look at me like im a freak and then walk away laughing...-_-'
Today: We were discussing abortion in Goverment. Then we came to "well what if she was raped" part. This kid (who every day finds a new way to annoy me) next to me says "She should keep it"
Me: Why?
Him: Well if she is dumb enough to get rapped she have to keep the kid.
Me: *pissed* So your saying its the GIRLS fault for being rapped?
Him: Well Duh, its not anyone else's. (same kid btw, who laughed when we watch a vid about a girl being sexually harrassed by her boss. Her boss illegaly stripped searched her, then made her jump around and then made her give him oral. He said this also was HER FAULT. The girl was a tiny petite girl, her boss very big and muscular). I wanted to jump on and start strangling him, or at least punch him. So did my friend (who has been rapped) once i told her why i was so
pissed off. (see only my part of the room heard his statements)
It REALY pisses me off when people use the word "rape" so lightly/loosly/jokingly.
Examples (FROM JUST TODAY AT SCHOOL!): Girl was being tickled by her bf and she shouts "help rape rape!" while laughing. This happened a couple times with diff people.
guys at lunch playing halo and i guess one of then double crossed the other "DUUDE! You totally raped me!"
Since when is "rape" the new replacement word? When did it get a second (or multiple) new meanings?
Vibes* 10:28
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13.5.09
Mom is threatening to leave again. Normally I wouldnt even think twice about it, no matter how hurt she sounds or the amount of tears on the floor. But last time she even went as far as renting a place and packing....So this time she may even take the boxes to with her and stay for a few nights. Then next time move out for sure (or maybe she wont come back from this time).
She has never gone so far as to rent and pack. Its usually just threatening or packing an over night bag and staying at a friends for a day or a few.
I dont know where to place her latest claim. Im trying to stay calm, its working. But I still cant help but feel my heart start to work itself up.
I wounder what will happen.....
Personally Ive been rooting for this. Last time I was so excited for her. Sure the 2 year old would be put on me (a 16 year old) and my life would be put on hold to take care of him and the house. But at least mom would be able to get away. At least she could finally be free of HIM.
Best of luck mom.
Vibes* 20:34
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